The Fortune Cookie

One the day I O'd this month I opened a fortune cookie and it said:

"Remember three months from this day. Good things are in store for you"

As silly as it is I can't help but hope that this is a sign.

This month I have three days of + OPK's, the most ever.

I am going to insist at my next appointment that they do a thyroid test again. My temps are so low and I have many of the signs of hypothyroidism. I almost hope I DO have hypothyroidism because that could mean our infertility isn't actually a reproductive system problem.

TTC

It may be hard to believe
But trying to conceive

Is not all fun and games
And picking baby names

Temps and charts and sticks
And HOPING you'll be sick

Because that would be a sign
Just like two pink lines

Obsessing over every pain
Wondering if you're still sane

All your sex is on demand
Right now, romance be damned

Every negative rips you apart
Anther month, another broken heart

Child of Mine

Child of Mine

I can see your face in my mind
I can hear your voice in my dreams
I know your smile in my heart

My arms ache for you
My heart breaks for you
My tears fall for you

Someday I will have you
Someday I will hold you
Someday I will know you

Now I dream of you
Now I call to you
Now I cry for you

Child of Mine

It was supposed to be easy...

We tried to be responsible, wait until we were ready financially and emotionally. I was there first but the nine years between DH and I matter sometimes. This was one of those times. So we got ready, quit smoking, cut out caffeine, changed to a healthier diet, started exercising more and went off BC. And nothing happened. So we started charting and temping and learned my cycles backwards and forwards. And nothing happened. This is where we are now. Limbo. Everyone in our families gets pregnant easily, it was supposed to be easy for us too. It's not, none of it is easy.